CUSTODIA UMBRARUM
The Story
The child fed from her heart, and the city slept because of it.
Night settled thick and airless, sliding into streets and windows alike, dragging the city under. The air stank of burnt copper and soot. In narrow alleys, shadows gathered, not cast by moonlight, but born from every nightmare that had ever made a home in a man’s heart. They did not roam. They waited.
She stood at the center of it all, wrapped in a tattered habit that clung to her like old regret. The cloth had once been white. She remembered that vaguely, the way one remembers a promise made before understanding its cost. Now it held smoke and residue, vows rewritten not by faith, but by endurance.
They called her the Keeper of Shadows, though no one spoke the name aloud. Names give things edges, and this place had learned to survive without them.
She carried no lantern. No torch. Only the dull glow leaking from her cracked heart, illuminating the darkness pressed against her like a second skin. It was not holy. It was not a promise. It was simply what remained.
In her arms, she cradled the child, or something that resembled one closely enough to pass.
Its eyes glimmered wet and ancient. Tiny fangs pressed into the thinning place of her heart with practiced hunger. She felt every bite. Her body had learned not to flinch.
Behind her, the bars held the others. Some leaned forward in recognition. Others turned away in relief. Hunger knows its own.
Above, stained glass fractured the light, casting beauty without intention. Saints had once occupied that space. Now only color endured.
“You’re not afraid of them,” a voice said.
“Yes,” the Keeper said. “It always does.”
“Then why do you do it?”
“Because the shadows do not need another jailor,” she said. “They need someone who will not look away.”
The darkness did not advance.
CUSTODIA UMBRARUM
Personal Essay
Custodia Umbrarum did not begin as a story. It began as the clawing persistence of thoughts and images that would not release their grip.
This piece would not comply. This time the pain was too deep, foundational, primal.
What surfaced instead was a question I could not soften: what happens when pain is not meant to be resolved, only carried.
If there is courage here, it is not in bearing the weight, but in refusing to lie about its permanence.
I’m April Martin, an artist, writer, and educator based in Kentucky. My work lives at the intersection of story, image, and lived experience. I’m interested in how people make meaning, how they survive what they’ve been through, and how creativity becomes a way back to the self.
Before founding a studio or publishing work, I served as a B-1 Bomber Crew Chief in the United States Air Force. That experience shaped how I approach everything.
After leaving the military, I earned a Bachelor of Arts in Photography and spent more than a decade running an inclusive art studio. From 2009 to 2023, I founded and directed Amagination Studios, teaching drawing, painting, photography, and visual storytelling to students of all ages and abilities, many of whom were neurodivergent.
In 2024, I closed my brick-and-mortar space and founded Purple Inkwell Studios. What began as a rebuilding period became a return to long-form writing, illustration, and deep creative focus. Today, Purple Inkwell functions as both a studio and an archive for my narrative worlds and visual work.
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